the journey has started

++hearT-brEak++

2006-03-06T02:31:00.000-08:00

++reCover++

TheSe 2 daYs is a verY TrAGiC moMents 4 mE....
i reAlly waNteD 2 saY sowRie foR thrEE guYs whiCh waNt a patCh up wiT me...
i'M so sowRiE thAt i coUld not accepT all oF u coz i'm noT uR dreAm gaL...i'M so soo sowRiE iF i reAlly huRt you badLy..no matTer waT,uR memoRiEs arE stiLl frEsh in mY heaRt..i wiLl alWays thiNk aboUt abOuT thE joY that wE havE beeN 2gethEr...if u R reading...so soWrie...i wiLl stiLl consiDer u as mY frEns..thAt is alwayS beEn in mY hearT....
+++heart breaK++
+i'm lonelY+
+i'm huRt+
+mY heaRt is in paiN+
+miSsiNg sumthinK+
+miSsinG suM1+
+can'T beaR the paiN+

++test disaster++

2006-03-02T04:26:00.000-08:00

ArgH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm stress!!!!!!!
i failed alot of my tests!!!!!! wat the f****......
i failed by physics by few marks
i failed my maths by few marks
i failed my geography by few marks...
the only i pass was only my mother tounge which is my language...
oh no!.....but studies are starting 2 flopping...what the hell!
from now i have 2 start bcking up my studies or else i will suffer soon...
as nt yr i will be taking my N level and it may be late 4 me ready...
i did not what 2 flop my studies because,if i have flop
my parents would not aloud me 2 race and do my stufss animore!
damn shit! no matter what i will always want 2 saty in this position that i could
help my lovely team PRECISION(PCRT) in the national 1 day..
not only depends on me but 2 all my lovely team mates....
like,christina,baoying,wen rui,taufiq,ivor,seumes,ivorji wen and also jiyin.....
w/o them and their teamwerk,precision will not be there 2 win races..
not only the the cyclists are important,but the other committe too...they were so important also...2 farid,faye,coach,doc and jiyin...they did alot of werk...
and the only person that i gonna thank is coach..as he train me well 2 get me more intrested in the sport...i really do like it...thanx alot coach...
not only that,i would like 2 see my new "sista" jiyin 2 support me in my first SACA race @ changi buiseness park...fuh! that wolud be my first time racing man!
cant wait 4 the 26/3/06....damn exciting ! can't wait...
ok then..i gtg...see ya soon!
+++++++++++++peace++++++++++missy idah+++++++++

++CYFORA RACE++

2006-02-27T04:06:00.000-08:00

++back again++
wow! yesterday was a blast!
i was lil proud of some of my team mates yesterday..they did preety well....even though i'm not in the race,but still i want 2 give my fullest support 2 my PCRT....they were really cool...2 seumes,ivor n taufiq,u were great! eventhough they were new,they still progressing 2 became a champion! wow! but i reallyt love the race yesterdae that @ least the rest of my teams did well.....i was realy proud of them....but i would really respect 1 of my team mates which is christina...she did really well..of coz! she's my junior! she is waiting 4 me to get into her position by training myself into it..now i'm still progressing...oh well it is really hard infact..but it was just in the beginning hoping that i could go for mY first saca race soon! and that is going 2 be my first tyme with the other teams around singapore infact! well....but if i have done better,maybe i could goin to ride @ genting at the end of the year maybe...i hope so...coz what i knew was now i have 2 design my PCRT jersey...quite intresting 2 me...new task...and now i'm getting more tasks..and that was great..@ least i would not was my stuff doing other things..and now i got also a new task which involves buisness...that was cool for a start 4 me..maybe i could earn some money and get a commision frm my "BOSS"....i hope so..since he wanted me 2 become his "salesgal" infact...but i new it sould be fun...not only that i still trying 2 catch some ideas in promoting my team 2 the public...hmmm...we will see.....but i will be hopping that i would not be flopping with my studies...hope so....ok then gtg..

ps// 2 wen rui...if u r reading this....i hope u would understand!

2006-02-27T03:34:00.000-08:00

++lurve hurts++

2006-02-22T04:09:00.000-08:00

++lurve hurTS++
back again....

For me now is that my life is in loneliness........i prefer living in a werld of PEACE
n quite....with no 1 disturbing my life....i oso felt that that i have nothing in this werld...damn sux...the only that i could depend on is only my sista lurps...which could understand me deeply..coz they knew me for years...but my heart is hurt becoz of lurve...guys...r hard 2 me trusted...coz they don't understand what gal wants...not only that,they did not noe how 2 treat gals properly...not knowing to take care a gals heart....feel lonely..nothing could make me happy...with the smile u have seen on my face is only fake...A SMILE DOES NOT MEANT ANYTHING 2 ME......with the laughter that i got was jus fake.....coz deep in my heart is only crying...but by crying still did not cure me....but i have 2 remain strong n try to fight wit all my might...w/o losing 2 lurve...lurve can't stop me from living....i was just losing my tears 4 notin....just wasting my time crying 4 lurve....my lurve would come naturally 1 dae which makes me bloom like a flower...it will, 1 day........all ihave 2 say now is that "LIVE LIFE 2 THE FULLEST"..........
+++++++++++++++++++missy idah+++++++PEACE+++++++++++++++++++++

++X-country disaster++

2006-02-21T02:23:00.000-08:00

++my new updates++
on the 17/02/2006
++X-country disaster++

back again....
it was a disaster...it was a very nice evening for me to join in with the my x-country run 4 the year 2006....but it turn out 2 be a big disaster 4 me....eventhough my rather good fren ivor had helped me alot on that day.,...he had helped in the pacing 4 the run i really appriciated his werk in helping me out...but sad 4 me as i suppose to win the medal as i have some of the nomber tag...coz i nearly fainted @ the inishing line...and i got 35! wat the hack...damn sad..but it is ok 4 me...but when cougars win....it was the top ten gals which will be able 2 take the medal...but in the end my name is not there....and my fren got it which she was behind a few more men.....but i give up in the end!!! i have planned that i should QUIT sports!!!!!! i give up 2 be a sportswomen.....but when the night came @ arnd 8+, my favourite coach,mr ramlan pleaded me not to quit coz she noe that i could do it...but infact what i told hym was that i have wasted i whole day(thurs) to train my stamina...i train alot of of things for my stamina and my physical but in the end wat i got was uat my tears...that's wat i got! i just could not stand..but in the end i was brave enough 2 talk 2 hym that i have recovered from my sadness and planned that i would try my best n try it with my whole effort....with his encouragement,my parents plus ivor, i would want 2 try harder and harder for the next time around.......i will just goin with the flow......
++missy idah+++
+++++++++++++++++++peace+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

++valentines day eve++

2006-02-13T02:55:00.001-08:00

++back again++

today.....valentines day eve...i did nothing...just doing my DT....just now DT was ok to me.....english paper 1.....oh god....ok lah...2 me it's ok...but i brain is damn blank...i could not concentrate in it becoz that idiot gopi kept disturbing me doin my werk...i got frustrated that i just scribble any how juz to finish that paper! argh! damn shit....crazy man! argh! but it quite fun r during the DT....gopi just wrote a few sentences only...but what i care it was his werk not mine..i'm not the 1 suffers...@ least i did part of it though....not bad ...hahax...but during the test some idiots have been throwing papers across the classroom...and of the paper ball hit on top of the head! wat the hell... dennis throw it..but i juz loook @ hym and we laugh...we continue doing it till 4 ...but actually all of us have done it @ 3.30....but the fact is,some of them did not bother 2 take their DT seriously...haiz........especially the he reatain students...they have not put in too mush effort in it...how could they survive???? nvm...it's up to them to manage their time...let's not tok abt mY DT...just stress out! tommorrow is valentine's day.....and ...........but i did not
sure if i'm going out with hym....but even just now i did not go home with hym bcoz of the DT...haix.....we'll see tomorrow then...but the said thing,i did not buy hym anything.....so sad....nvm...maybe the other tyme...or other days maybe...
but now i oso stress out with some other things 2....my msn n frenster contacts is ZERO man! i was really mad yesterdae! really frustrated man! i have 2 reset it back! but i did not noe if i could...damn! it takes 1 1/2 years 4 me 2 keep my precious profile...oh god! what 2 do!!!!!! argh!!!!!
nvm,let me realease my stress n try again the other time....ok then,gtg bye!
++signing off++
++missy idah++

++my pix++

2006-02-13T02:42:00.000-08:00

++My piX++
++iDaH n iKin++ in thE staRs++
++mE n onlY me++
++lovAgaL++
++cheese++

::tireD::tirEd::

2006-02-04T18:45:00.000-08:00

heLLo!
i'm back again........damN tiReD......i havE beeN doiN a loT of laPs in mY training....siNce i'm in the cYcliNG tEam...i nEeD 2 leArn soMe of tHe theoriEs...i haVe a baD heaDacHe of leArning tHe theorieS wiTh mY coAch...buT @ leasT 2daE i diD prEeTy weLL 4 mY sKillZ...buT @ leasT haRitH haVe heLp me aloT in thE skiLlz..tHanX 2 hYm i gOt nEw skiLLZ 2 iMprovE oN....bUt tomMoroW..i wiLl haVinG anOtheR trAiniNg @ liM chU kanG....wiTh thE oTher tEAm meMbers...jUz iN thrEe moNths,i couLd iNterAcT wiTh tHem...sO eaSy foR me @ miX arOund wiTh tHem....nOw i haVe knOwn tHem beTTer n tHey teAchEs mE aloTZ! i'M proUd of theM! bUt i cAn't waiT 4 mY fiRst eVer rAce iN maRch..tHat the fiRst tyMe i'm goNnA rAce wiTh thE oTher clUbz....tHat exciTiNg 4 mE! yeA! can'T waiT....sO daMn haPpy...bUt i stiLL nEeD 2 brUsh uP moRE! that's waT mY coAchEs alwAeZ teLLz me...buT thE maIn thiNg is dAt,eveRy trAining,i wiLL alWaEz iMproviNg..thAt's maKes mE anTs 2 come 2 traIniNg moRe ofTen....hE gAve aloT of suPpoRt...buT thE maiN goAl ryTe heRe is thAt,i gOt 2 tRy 2 riDe wiTh tHe otherZ natiOnaL raCes...iF i haVe rEacH thaT pOint of stAge! wow! i shouLd shoUt ouT loUd! n thX my coach n mY famiLy meMberz 2...oUhk...i goT to haVe a reSt coz tom..i haVe 2 suCk those oF thE wheeLz...goT 2 go bye!

2006-02-04T02:45:00.000-08:00

::neW reLationShiP::

2006-02-02T04:07:00.000-08:00

halo again...
2 dae is the day that i realised that i have broke up with him(shareazal)....i understand his feelings...i knew he were right...i too feel sowrie that if he slack in his studies,and he will be kicked out from the team...it will worse 4 hym...it will be damn sad for hym n for me...but wat i care about is that i just support in what ever he will be doing..like soccer...i don't feel dissapointed as we r still brother n siz..i feel happy for it...now the next part of it,i have agreed that i would accept haikal now..not for pity,but for heart..i just did not know that he had been waiting 4 a long tyme in getting attached with me...with my heart,i have accepted hym....i know that i can live with hym...if we can co-operate with each other...n 2dae the board is halfway done...i just have no ideas doing it...but i will get soon....not in realtionship with haikal i must think about,but 4 studies 2.....my CAs r coming up.... just now there's a maths test...but i did not knew it if i have done well in it....hmmm...but i'm happy that i have scored gd marks for my mother tounge test juz now...but that does not meant it..i must strive in more harder 2 get gd grades 2....that's all for 2nyt infact....
wait till 2morow...
signing off,
-missy idah-

::heartbroken::

2006-02-01T03:40:00.000-08:00

yoha!
2dae story was a lil sad 4 me...coz i feel damn dissapointed now...not really heartbroken r...i feel different 2dae..i juz feel damn sad... alot of probs have gone into my head right now....with family too...2dae i was sick..i was stress up with alot my pple who were arnd me...family,frens....they stress me up..especiallymy mom...she had shouted @ me everytime i use the comp...she would alwaez gave me 1 hour to surf the net...it was damn short..n she would complain everything....n nag @ me the whole night....i got damn sick n tired of her nagging....sumtymes i try killing myself...but that is the stupid thing that i am goin ever to done! but that not true..not only that sumtymes i jus dont understand about realationships....sumtymes i juz don't understand his behavior...i try winning his heart..but sumtime i couldnt???wat should i do?? i still cant think about it properly....stress..heartbroken...that were the 2 words minggling in my head right now...now i getting sicker n sicker...by crying does not help me either....or trying 2 be alone...still cant help me either...no matter wat i feel 2morrow,i still have 2 win his heart no matter what happens...even if i were sick either...for hym,i will do anything.......got 2 take my panadol n have a gd nyte rest...(if i could sleep)